I am so tired of writing onthis blog how much I want to lose weight and blah, blah, blah. I might as well just face it and get REALLY fat and live with it. The only problem is, I can't. I look @ B and I feel like I am slowly killing myself and not being for him at all.
I feel like I am not a good mom or wife. I don't spend enough time with my kid or my DH. I don't spend enough time cleaning...correction-I never clean. J does most of it and he works. I have got to get myself in gear. I have got to get motivated and do this for my family and myself.
I can't slowly kill myself and leave B and J and my mom. I have to do something. I am so depressed right now and tired of it all.....I need direction.
I am going to start writing in my jouurnal again and doing devotions. I think I will find myself a bible study book too.
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