I think it's REALLY time

Today I watched on the Today Show about a couple that lost over 200 pounds together. It was so inspirational. They both did Weight Watchers and eat so much better now. You could look at there old pics and see the stress on there bodies. The way they looked so tired. You could look at them now and see new people.

I took a really good look in the mirror at myself and I look tired. Old and tired. I haven't taken any meds in about 2 weeks because I am all out. I am sleepy all of the time. Not tired, but, sleepy. I don't sleep well at night anymore either. I stay up all hours because I cat nap during the day. This is not a pity party blog today. This is a get off your butt and take care of yourself blog!

So that is what I am going to do. TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!

I've been examining alot about what I eat. And wow....I eat terribly. I don't get enough nutrition and Ben is headed to be the fat kid, if something doesn't change. J is just...well... he's equally as tired and eats just as bad as I do.

We went to eat with J's parents yesterday.

Here was the menu on what everyone ordered:
-First of all his mom ordered the Combo appetizer.
-Fried cheese wedges
-Fried Chicken Tenders
-Loaded potato wedges w sour cream

--OMG so much fried stuff!! That was a heart attack waiting to happen.

What I had:
-14 oz Louisianna Sirlon w herb butter sauce (I didn't eat all of it)
-Loaded baked potato w butter, sour cream, cheese, bacon bits
-a Bowl of loaded potato soup
-2 rolls w butter
-2 bites of Ben's chicken tenders
-1 cheese wedge

Halfway through eating I started having these wierd chest pains. Like right under my bra. I could not eat another thing. It was like the food just stopped. I didn't feel anything in my stomach...it was all in my chest......I walked around feeling like that for the rest of the night. I seriously thought I was going to have a heart attack. I seriously thought about my body and how I was just destroying it. Also, the other night I woke up with Ben (he woke up) and was in a cold sweat and dizzy. My chest was pounding. I didn't tell anybody but, I know my blood sugarwas screwed up.


I am going to get a notebook and log everything I eat. I am going to get back on WW and JUST DO IT!
I am going to start walking. I am not sure for how long or when or where, but, I am going to. I want to show Ben how important it is to be healthy.

I will write more later. I need to get some things done.